Insomnia

Sometimes I wonder how people get by in life without genuinely knowing the people who are supposedly close to them: knowing their personalities and what makes them tick, knowing when their smile is a plastered-on-phony, knowing how to make them feel better, knowing how to make them laugh with their whole being, knowing how to comfort them, knowing what their most deepest thoughts are, knowing their most valuable dream in life, or knowing how to love them.
With each and every meaningful relationship in my life, I want to unconditionally and unequivocally know them. I like to think that I am pretty good at understanding people. But at times, I am awful at understanding. I just think that whole-hearted relationships in life are unmistakeably important. My mother. My father. My sister and brother. My grandparents. My friends. Everyone I love.
I have trouble sleeping these days. Maybe I just like the feeling of staying up late... I tend to think more clearly at night.




"This is how it works
You're young until you're not
You love until you don't
You try until you can't
You laugh until you cry
You cry until you laugh
And everyone must breathe
Until their dying breath."
-Regina Spektor "On the Radio"